New Year, New Goals

As I sit and think of my word for this year (choose), I have been reflecting on 2014 as a year. Man... it wasn't easy. I definitely had to choose to ignore that pile of dirty dishes, and to ignore those toys all over my living room sometimes. There was a lot of change in our household, and many times it felt very out of control and chaotic. I'm hoping this year is a year of settling in. I've already resolved to be home more and be less busy. I won't be doing vendor shows much this year and I'm okay with that. It's time to step back and approach my businesses differently. I want to fully enjoy being a college graduate and not having to worry about homework and due dates. I'm looking forward to having more time to read, scrapbook, and just relax with my family.

Looking back on my goals for 2014... I didn't do so well. Honestly, sometimes I felt like I was lucky just to be making it through the year. (I did run 3 out of 4 of the 5K's I wanted to though.) I hope 2015 isn't like that. 

2015 is bringing a lot of exciting things... I'm going to Las Vegas for the first time in July for the Scentsy Family Reunion. I cannot wait! I've never been to Vegas before and am excited to experience it and explore, even if it means facing my fear of flying! Also in 2015, I'm getting MARRIED! I'm so thrilled. Everything about this relationship and wedding feels right. It's slowly coming together and I couldn't be more excited. I want to try to share some of my planning here, but we'll see because I don't want to give away too much. For our honeymoon we are visiting Florida, and I'm really excited for that because I haven't been there in 20 years. Literally. So that will be fun, as well!

I have no big ambitions for 2015, but there are a few things I want to do:

• Post 52 times on this blog this year. That's only a post a week! Hopefully this will lead me to regular writing again.
• Finish my Project Life for 2013. (There are still some blank spots and pages.)
• Finish my Project Life for 2014. There are more than several weeks that need to be done.
• Finish my Me: The Abridged Version book. I started the project, but still need to do most of it. The holidays and life got in the way.
• Start my 2015 Project Life. (I need to figure out which kit I want to use!)
• Read one book a month. That's only 12 books. It's doable.

  Every time I check something off my list, I'll try to remember to report on it here. :)

Being the heroine.

 

Recently, I found this quote, and at the time, I really needed to read it. Since I read it, it has been a guiding force for me.

 

It has been over a year since my divorce was final now. It is hard to believe it's only been that long. Most days it feels like it has always been like this. Just me and Cameron. Life is easier in some ways, but it is still harder in others. This morning I did not want to go to work. I wasn't feeling well, and I just wanted to take the day off and sleep all day. I don't have that option, and on days like today, it's hard. I want someone to take care of me. I want someone to be there to help financially so I'm able to take the day off. The reality is that it is just me here though, and I have rent and electricity to pay, and if I miss a day of work, I am not able to pay one or more of my bills. So I went to work. Because I depend on myself, and more importantly, Cameron depends on me.

 

It is so very easy for me to make excuses for myself. For me to play the single mom card, and throw my hands up, and say whatever it is that I am doing is too hard. School is too hard, it's too hard to manage my money, it's too hard to make it to work on time. It's all excuses. Yes, divorce was heartbreaking and I still struggle, but it doesn't define me or give me a reason to make excuses.

 

I want to be the heroine.

 

I want to say I really tried. I want to help people. I want to better myself. I want to make meaningful contributions to my world. None of what I am doing is easy right now, but this is the path I have chosen because I believed it would be better for Cameron and myself. As I chose this path, I also have to choose to embrace the now.

 

This is our now, and it's up to me to make the best of it.



Hello again, Blackberry.

I had to say goodbye to my iPhone recently and it has been SUCH an adjustment. I got a Blackberry and although I really like some things (hello NO autocorrect!!), I wish other parts were a little better (hello not-as-awesome camera). Oh well. In a few years, I'll get the newest, coolest iPhone. Who knows what it will be like then! :)

Here are a few photos I took with my Blackberry (and played with in Picnik) from our trip down to the campground last weekend:

Snacking on Goldfish

Napping with Whalington :)

Taking his Cars for a ride in his stroller. :)